Diagnosis

One of the hardest things about being a prophet is coming to an understanding that God will only reveal certain Things. I’m Not psychic! I don’t have magical brain powers, I only know what God tells me or allows me to have intuition about. Well about six months ago, we as a family received tragic news – my sister was diagnosed with stage 3 cancer. That day was hard, not just because of the diagnosis, it was another reminder of human realization. A reminder that no matter how close God and I are I’m merely a human with extra knowledge at certain times. It’s easier to comprehend when I don’t get advance notice, if it’s not someone that close to me. It hits me harder when it is. So why didn’t I have an intuitive thought or even a passing inclination? When my sister had appendicitis- I diagnosed her with barely any symptoms. She an an emergency appendectomy after hours of doctors probing because they didn’t believe that could be it because that’s not how her symptoms ’presented.’ She told them she Knew and just asked them to please check, when they finally agreed. This is my normal- how my life works! When I know – I Know! When I don’t know it frustrates me because Why wasn’t this important enough?! So I came to this conclusion that day as she and I were talking, God didn’t tell me ahead of time because it’s a battle She has to face. Only She, herself, and God can help her through this. I firmly believe this is a bump, a lesson for her to take away a closer more intimate relationship with him. I had the opportunity to remind her this is Not a death sentence! We talked about things “I’ve known in the past and why wouldn’t He prepare Me for this – to maybe help prepare her?” I reminded her how God had prepared me for my beloved dogs death for two years. He knew how I would grieve. How hard that would be for me. She was my second child, she was my comfort when the whole world turned against me (or so I felt – don’t we all have those moments) So I reminded my sister, if this was a death sentence I’m certain I would have at least had an inclination that this could be a diagnosis! How could He prepare my heart for two years for the loss of my dog, when you are so much more important. This is a struggle we’ll all face and deal with, this is your journey and I think it’s time for you to turn ALL your worries over to him. Realize you can’t do this alone, but only He alone is the ultimate Healer! He’s got you in the palm of his hand. We can walk this together, but there will be days it’ll only be Him you cry out to!